Something I should have said long time ago

Very sad to hear Mark...

Mark , I'm really sorry for you ):
I hope you could keep swimming so that your condition doesn't get worse . Yeah life may seem like crap but these are the times when you need to kick your ass up and do something about it . If your mom is always neglecting you and saying discouraging stuff , just don't listen to her . (I would tell my mom to fuck off) <-- If you've done that already and doesn't work , just try your best to ignore and tune her out , because with a person who is constantly putting you down beside you , it will soon turn into reality and it will also keep putting you down . Also cut some slack on your mom , she might be really stressed out because of what happened between your father . She just needs some time . I don't know what I can say about your father , don't want to be mean but , he's an ass (I'm christian , and it offends me that someone can easily switch religions like that . He doesn't deserve to be loved by god, But I can't say that because God loves everyone . He is love itself) .
Wow , I feel like I'm writing an essay .
Anyways Mark , If you're ever feeling like crap or just need a friend to talk to I'm here for you (:

Dang Mark im glad you did come out though .

1. maybe you should start swimming again for your asthma. because your health is important to us.

2.
man.. i wish i could be with you right now D: to help cope you in your dyer need Mark. Try not to feel like that your the only one in this, people though out the world could be experiencing the same exact emotions your going through right now. For your mother and father, i hope... just hope deep down inside their hearts they love each other still. and the still care about you Mark. even thought it might not seem like it. they probably care deeply.

For your mother business. If they're angry, that want to make everybody the know unhappy. try not to let her negative charisma to float around your mind, and emotion. just lets it go pass you, and ignore it.

i like this saying a lot, but it might not work for most people
"in every problem there is always a silver lining to everything"
(try to use your imagination for this part)
but its like your in a dark, damp, and cold cave with nothing right now. all you have is yourself and your mother.
i feel like you need to take charge of the whole situation. and find the entrance of this cave. to escape to the warm and shining world outside.
because people care about you Mark. even if this is just Maple story. we're all human beings, and we just want you to be happy and safe.


For your Father.. he. does not seem fit to be a father yet. if all he does is go with women he likes. In my eyes the difference between a man and a boy. is that a man would care for those he loves, and would not dare to hurt anybody. As for a boy, they are careless, reckless, and "free" the feel like the can do whatever they want. when they want. what I'm trying to say is that sometimes we just might have to learn how to either forgive and forget. or just let things and memories go and drift away.


anyways those are just my thoughts about your situation.
if you need anything Mark. I'm here
People care mark. we all want to help you!
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-Andrew
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(i feel like i rambled on too much Lol)

Mark, I am deeply sorry in what you're going through. Your going through harsh times that most of us are not aware of during our average life. Though I understand what a great pain of divorce is, as I've seen my parents go through the process when I was around a young age. Sometimes I forsake my mother and i personally hate her for abandoning me with my Father at an age where care and love is needed. Ever since then My Step-mother, (whom I call my mother now) has taken care of me and at times when i look at my Brother (half-brother) i get really jealous and angry because of the fact that he has a mom that I wasn't able to receive the same love. Aside from that, I am sorry about your health conditions, I really wish you can recover with a healthy lung once again. I love you, Mark and I'll always be there for you as a friend for whatever reason and struggle that you are going through.

Dude. I feel bad for you but at the same time I think that you're making this a bigger deal than it has to be.
If you're looking for pity, then I guess you shouldn't read this...
What you're going through is pretty bad I suppose but don't you think your negative attitude is just making things worse? I'm not saying that you're not allowed to feel depressed or that you shouldn't feel sad but its not the end of the world.
Not sure if its just where I live, but divorce is pretty common now-a-days. And so what if your dad fell for a Muslim woman. You make it sound like that's like the biggest sin a Christian man can commit. Are Muslims not people? And why is God doing this to you? Apparently God said that he wouldn't let you go through something that you can't handle. And since you're still alive, it means that you're strong enough to handle this amount of pain.
I'm not saying this to sound mean or anything. I just think that experiences like these should be looked at in a positive way and be learned from.
And if you think I'm some brat that doesn't know anything, I went through similar experiences and more so I can pretty much guess how it feels.

I agree 110% with nightmare, come on mark, i havent known you very long but you seem like a great strong guy, you're better than all of this depressed shit man, pull through. Everyone here at CosmoMS is here for you 100%!

dude....well... my life isnt as bad but i can still feel you for some of the problems.
parents fighting are a pain in the ass....especially when they drag you into them.
everyone has had those dark moments in their life wen they do not know why they even exist. if there are ppl that havnt had those moments....either they have perfect parents who planned their life or they just havnt got there yet .....

anyway....here is what i tell myself wen i have problem about anything. hopefully it ll help.

first of all and possibly the most important step is to pull yourself out of the problem.... cut down all the emotions associated with. try to look at it from a 3rd person's angle. I know its hard to do, but emotions can really mess up one's judgement.

then realize what you want. wat u truly want. like a life time goal. say for me, I dont wanna stay as a normal person who goes to work everyday and get an hourly wage. I want to do business where if i make it big, i can bring my whole family to a new level in term of social and financial status. This is a life time goal. I might never achieve it, but its a dream i guess u can call it. But it is something that i would like to achieve one day.

After that, think about the problem you have and how it relates to your goal. Ex. my parents are bitching at me all the day about why arnt i getting enough grades to get into pharmacy and im failing some tests in addition to that. I feel depressed cuz i failed tests and ppl yelling at me doesnt help much at all ....but wen i relate it to my goal then it gives me motivation to try harder. I would think about where i would end up if i continue what i am doing -->probably jsut a normal job wif an average pay as i failed to have a decent job that would provide the basic starting money for business. When you compare the two situations, im sure anyone would be scared of what would happen if current trend continues. This way, you are motivating yourself to try bettter. The importance of this step is it gives you motivation. True motivation that will actually drive you forward.

For me, usually i would get myself back together and start working toward my goal at this step.
But sometimes the situation/problem you have doesnt directly relate to your goal (like good grades-->better job-->possiblity of achieving goal). At this time, i suggest you to think about how the negative emotions you are feeling right now might relate to your goal. Ex. i broke up with girlfriend. Im sad of course. I dont wanna do anything since i just feel lost.... then i think about how these emotions relate to my goal (negative emotions--> not doing any work--> bad grades-->fail in life?). You realize wat you are doing is bad, so u can now tell yourself w/e the problem u have is not worth it. Is my ex thats part of my past more important than my dream? HELLZ NO!

This is for me. I'm a really logical person that can cut off my emotions relatively easily compare to most of my friends.
sometimes you know wat u r doing is wrong, but u just dont have motivation to try...hopefully this will give u that motivation.
its worth a try

anyway summary:
1. cut off emotions, be a 3rd person in the situation
2. think about your dream, your goals.
3. think about how the situation u r in can relate to the goal. for the better or for the worse. if its for the worse, is it worth it to dread over this problem instead of working toward your goal?
4.get yourself back together!!

I hope you get past these problems and truly move on wif YOUR OWN LIFE! fuk your parents who dont care about you! they gave birth to you, but that doesnt mean they own you. If i were you, i would pull myself together and do something great in life and prove to them what a success you are. cut them out of your life for a while and get to know yourself and wat you want! I strongly suggest you to get past this family issue ASAP cuz once u r in univeristy/college there are so much other shits you think about and stress over!

Good luck Mark! Talk to me if you need anything! haha i may not be the person to come to wen u r feeling emotional and just want comfort, but i can give logical advices that hopefully will help! <33